What the fuck...... WHAT THE FUCK!!!!

What fucken selfish shit. I allow myself to dwel and get depressed over my spoiled existance. I get depressed.

I'm here fuckin worring about what could be, what should be, what I want, even tho I have more than 90% of other people in this world filled with REAL pain, REAL misery. I worry about material bullshit, about the pity love stories in my life when most people in 3rd world countries would KILL to be in my shoes. To live without the stress of wondering if they'll have something to eat tommorow would make them fell SO great, but I'm here typing this idiotic thing on this meaningless web site so I can attract a bit of artifical attention so that I might feel a little better. I think I'm just gonna lay here in bed and try to stop breathing. But I'm sure I'll still be here tommorow because I'm human and we fight for survival. I'll take that last breath before I fall asleep, but I wish I had a reason for taking up that oxygen. I wish I knew why it's me living this bourgeois lifestyle, I wish I could do something. But I feel so helpless, Bush, the government, destroying what's left of human dignity, replacing it with parking lots, skyscrapers and a commercial or two on the side. I bet they all sleep well at night. So why the fuck can't I? WHY THE FUCK CAN'T I!!!!